tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31105118.post3061090461249158161..comments2023-09-12T08:47:06.615-04:00Comments on Naru Hodo: More Past Revisited -- INTENSITYMariehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04500724701139176293noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31105118.post-24271321208098812602007-08-13T22:42:00.000-04:002007-08-13T22:42:00.000-04:00I go for the strange... I guess I probably keep th...I go for the strange... <BR/><BR/>I guess I probably keep things relatively light most of the time through life, but I do find the serious, ponderous side of me springing forth even when I question it sometimes. Like when I talk with my son. Sometimes I don't know that he needs me to be so serious, but I just figure it is natural to me, and I haven't yet really figured out how to be authentic without it. At least on those certain occasions. And there are other occasions where it is like the white elephant dancing on my lap (??). I want to be friendly, I want to be relational, but more than aught else, I want to be a real friend. So in my attempts not to be "the heavy", I become "the clunky". But I'm doing better. In my early 20s I couldn't get past sobbing when I wanted to be "the real friend".<BR/><BR/>I know those who are true friends, and those I can trust, will see through my clunkiness and be patient with me.<BR/><BR/>Because they probably do the same things :)Mariehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04500724701139176293noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31105118.post-38802626786918335382007-08-13T13:11:00.000-04:002007-08-13T13:11:00.000-04:00I'm intense, too. And it used to put people off a...I'm intense, too. And it used to put people off and it DID feel like rejection. So, I sort of withdrew.<BR/><BR/>Now I sort of keep my intensity in my own mind - think deep thoughts and write alot. I can still be pretty intense sometimes in conversations if I don't monitor myself. I try to keep my blog very light-hearted or it could become way too deep and, well, probably strange! lol!<BR/><BR/>I think I've been able to find a sort of balance where I can be intense in my prayers and thoughts and with a few people who are as intense as I am, while keeping things sort of light and on the surface everywhere else. I'm still able to be authentic - I pick the "time and place" to be intense. =) Hope that makes some kind of wierd sense!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31105118.post-10100240421123566382007-08-02T15:44:00.000-04:002007-08-02T15:44:00.000-04:00Yeah, I guess it takes all types, as they say : )....Yeah, I guess it takes all types, as they say : ).<BR/><BR/>I've always felt that intense people are a minority. Minorities are always tempted to feel proud and a bit judgmental.... perhaps because they also feel a bit isolated and defensive. I used to have to confess judgmentalism ALL the time, and even now I have to keep a vigil to make sure it doesn't regain a foothold. <BR/><BR/>I've discussed this with my kids, but wouldn't have thought of it in this context if you hadn't said that. Maybe it's not true for you, but I thought I'd mention it just in case!<BR/><BR/>Anyway, yours is one of my favorite blogs too.Willahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17374272000644968446noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31105118.post-59556712786127914362007-08-01T10:45:00.000-04:002007-08-01T10:45:00.000-04:00Willa,Maybe this goes a ways to explain why I feel...Willa,<BR/><BR/>Maybe this goes a ways to explain why I feel such a kindred spirit with you by reading your blogs!<BR/><BR/>It brought to mind something else I've struggled with, which is really the flip side of worrying about feeling rejected, and that is being judgmental towards people who are not intense. That, I think, is the main thing I've gotten better at in recent years.Mariehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04500724701139176293noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31105118.post-57625512816415954702007-08-01T02:42:00.000-04:002007-08-01T02:42:00.000-04:00I am intense and I usually do my best to keep it u...I am intense and I usually do my best to keep it under wraps. I think now that I'm in my 40's I've started looking for ways to allow myself to be myself .... obviously I don't want to lose people (which is what I fear, either that or making some kind of fool of myself). But then, on the other hand, I don't want to have to keep that barrier up for the rest of my life either. If I do that I might never have the fiery realness and honesty that the saints have. <BR/><BR/>It sounds to me like you've come up with the realization that you need to work through the intensity, so I think that's an insight right there.Willahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17374272000644968446noreply@blogger.com